| Then Disappearing... |
[Jan. 20th, 2010|02:39 am] |
Since I don't feel like writing much today, I figured I'd just post a poem...
I wrote it and it's on my DeviantART [ batticus.deviantart.com ] but... I don't know... I just wanted to share it here too.
So here goes:
"THEN DISAPPEARING"
I remember five A.M.
Orange suburban glow painting my skin
Quiet night and solitude.
I remember dancing tongues
Muffled sighs and secret smiles
You loved me then.
I remember pulling my heart together
Kept in place with clumsy duct tape
and makeshift stitches.
I remember you
Words too painful to write
So I'll only think them.
I missed you then, but without you
I never would have found him.
Without him, I would not be whole.
Thank you, first love
For leading me to Real Love
Showing me the way
Then disappearing.
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| I'll Be A Flatliner For A Heartkiller... |
[Jan. 7th, 2010|08:05 pm] |
Yeah, ok, I know.
I'm actually a pretty big fan of HIM. I don't care what you people think of that... if you know me, you know about my obsession with Finland. Well, you can't be obsessed with Finland and NOT know who HIM is. They're the biggest band to come from there apparently. ANYWAY! Their new song is stuck in my head and it's driving me slowly insane. :D If you want to follow me on my descent into madness, simply watch the video below... hehehehe.
OK... I'm done with that nonsense.
It's 2010 people! Can you believe that shit? Just think, in only 2 years the world is apparently coming to an end. At least, it is if you're a 2012-number 23-whatever else conspiracy theorist. Which I am not. I don't believe that because the Mayan calendar ends two years from now, the entire WORLD will cease to exist. Maybe the Mayans got tired of writing all that shit down? Ever think of that, you bloody alarmists?!
Ahem.
I apologize.
I haven't been writing much... let's see... my dreadlocks are almost 2 months old. I'm in love with them. There are loose hairs again but I guess the more my hair locks up, the more relaxed I feel about it. I just want to watch them grow and form and see what they become. It's becoming sort of a zen thing for me. I know it's only hair, but they're an extension of myself and they represent me, I think. It's kind of stupid to say that about some dead cells that sprout from my scalp, but I'm really attached to them. Emotionally, I mean. Obviously they're attached to my scalp. Durrrrrr.
So I got a fantastic keyboard for Xmas from my mother. I was unable to bring it home with me due to the plethora of other crap she bestowed upon me... I had too much to carry back anyway. Plus the keyboard would've been awkward on the bus. I do plan on attempting to make a trip back to Keswick to fetch it from her apartment. I intend to learn how to play, and play well. I think it'll add a little extra oomph to my music, and that's what I want more than anything. I need to perform live again so I can conquer my crippling stage fright. Perhaps I'll hit up Free Times Cafe soon and play an open mic night. The last time I went I had a lot of fun. I'll keep y'all posted, for sure.
I guess that's about it. As soon as my dreadies reach 2 months, I promise I'll post an entry complete with fantastic photographs of their progress. I can't wait until they reach one year ... I plan on making a bad ass YouTube video slideshow thing of my hair's journey.
Sigh.
BABE I'LL BE A FLATLINER FOR A HEARTKILLER!!!!!
Damn you, Ville Hermanni Valo.
Damn you to HADES.
;)
<3 Jenikulta
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| Sure Is Cold Out Tonight... |
[Dec. 18th, 2009|09:17 pm] |
I spent the better part of the day hanging around the Bloor - Bathurst part of Toronto. I had a few things to get for my family and friends for Christmas. I used to live in that area, and it's amazing how many stores I passed by 1000 times without ever venturing inside. I went into one store (which of course, I can't remember the name of) and the people in there were so nice. I got a Christmas gift for my cousin Matt as well as one for my sister Ashley. I also got a little something for myself.
It's been a weird day. Definitely not what I would call a good one, either. I'm not going into any detail on the internet because this shit's a little more private than that, but I will say it was an emotional roller coaster. I feel better now though... everything is cool.
I do wish things would settle.
Jen |
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| DREADful Update: Day 23 |
[Dec. 3rd, 2009|01:22 pm] |
Thirty days of dreadful goodness are so close I can practically taste them. :) So I figured I'd give you an update (with pictures!!!) so you can know how my dreads are coming along.
Last time I wrote about my hair, I was complaining about having dandruff... well, it seems that if I wash my hair every day or every second day with Dr. Bronner's soap, then the dandruff flakes stay away (mostly). I've read on the internet that when your dreads are forming, you're not supposed to wash them frequently. In my case, washing them frequently works in my favor. I have pretty oily hair, which is detrimental to the formation of glorious dreadies. Every time I wash them with this miracle soap, they tighten up. They're practically like little ropes now, which is kind of awesome.
Last night I spent a good amount of time palmrolling them and clockwise rubbing them. No one ever mentioned how AWESOME it feels to CWR (clockwise rub)! My head felt magnificent afterwards. The dreads looked pretty good, too. I ordered some Lock Peppa from dreadheadhq.com a couple of days ago and I'm looking forward to seeing what it does to my hair, if anything. I'll be sure to let you know.
Okay then! Without further ado, I present to you the latest pictures of my favorite little dread babies!!!!
Day 22, before palmrolling and CWR
Loose hairs around the front.
After major CWR. See? Poofy roots.
So I'm pretty happy with how they're coming along... there are still loose hairs to be crocheted and little bits to tidy up, but all in all I'd say not bad for less than a month!
See ya later.
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| Just Wanted To Share This |
[Dec. 2nd, 2009|04:21 pm] |
I found this on LOLCats and it made me smile.. Here it is for all of you to enjoy...
All together now: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Yes, I AM a crazy cat lady. Don't judge me.
J.
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